Monday, August 9, 2010
To be honest, I've had a little bit of the stay-at-home mommy blues lately. I don't know why it's just now hitting and, really, it could be from a million different things going on right now (switching birth control, job hunting, parents moving, it being too hot to do anything outside!!!, etc.) Thyroid problems run in my family so I even went in to get that checked out. Nope, everything is normal. Except it's not. I can be emotional sometimes but this has been ridiculous. Don't worry, I don't think I'm a danger to myself or anyone around me... unless crying has damaging effects on men... then Brock may be in danger! It seems to be that's all I've been able to do lately is cry. Even I'm tired of crying! After finding out that my bloodwork is normal, I've done a lot of self-reflection and talking to my mom and a friend or two (you guys are the best!!!). I think a lot of this is "identity" problems. I feel like I've lost a little bit of myself which is weird to me because I've waited my whole life to be a stay-at-home wife & mom. However, I think going from working in a job I loved (this is who I am, this is what I do) to staying home all day, every day, cleaning the same things over again, and having limited outings and/or time for myself has taken a toll. I got a lot of self satisfaction from my job. I also had time for exercise and my bible studies. At first I thought this was a social problem, not getting to be with friends enough or something, but now I think I realize this is a "me" problem. I'm not prioritizing my day or time to where I do things that make me feel good about myself, exercise and bible studies being the main ones.
So, this all being fresh in my mind, Gracie and I went to Half Price Books to try to find a book on photography for my mom's birthday. I ended up remembering my mom isn't big on reading so I went back to the Christian section to see if they happened to have Love & Logic. Of course I didn't remember who it was by so I went through the whole section reading every time in the Christian Parenting shelf while trying to keep a kicking and very wiggly Gracie from getting down to run away. I ended up running across a book called "Keeping the ME in Mommy". It's written by Lisa Whelchel (the girl who played Blair in The Facts of Life). I bought it and started reading it on our trip this weekend and am really enjoying it. She writes the book in three sections: taking care of your body, soul, and spirit. At the end of each chapter, she gives ideas on how to apply the things mentioned in that chapter. It's a super easy read and the first section is on your spirit. In the first chapter of that section, she talks about how she needed to maintain her relationship with God but finding the time was hard and felt overwhelming at times. One of the ideas she gave was that she started using daily tasks as triggers to remind her to pray about specific things. Example: cooking dinner = praying that God's word would nourish her and her family, spot cleaning laundry = asking God to remove stains of sin and guilt, folding clothes = praying that God would clothe her family in righteousness. She also did this with scripture memorization. Of course, she recommends this as a way to "pray without ceasing" and keeping His word at the forefront of her mind... not as a substitute for studying or sitting down to talk with God. I'm really liking a lot of her ideas and wanted to pass them on in case anyone else may be interested in finding more time for YOU.
Thank you again for those of you I've talked to and for making me feel normal! :) I hope if anyone else out there feels this way that they don't feel alone in this. I felt so ridiculous for being so emotional when we are incredibly blessed and have every reason to be joyful. But the transition to being a mom is hard sometimes. It's natural to want to do everything we can for our families and we let ourselves slide down the list of priorities. I've learned that I've got to take time for myself to care for myself because, we all know, when mama's happy, everyone's happy. :)
Monday, June 21, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
???? I know that's catmint in the back but have no idea what the yellow flowers are. Gracie LOVES them though!
Going outside is now one of Gracie's favorite things to do! I can't even say "outside" if it doesn't mean actually going outside. She'll run to the back door and cry, saying "side!" until I take her out to play. Here are few pics of her having fun in the yard.
AND back to the yellow flowers. :)
Monday, May 31, 2010
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Here she is after she tried to eat one of her dandelions. :)
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Friday we went to Opryland. Unfortunately The Grand Ole Opry was closed to the public because there was a show choir competition being held so we ended up going to Opry Mills mall. It was pretty much like Grapevine Mills but it's always nice to do a little shopping! :) We ran out of time after that and had to get ready for the rehearsal dinner that night. It's crazy how much less time you have for sightseeing when you have to be sure and fit in naps and feeding schedules! lol :) The rehearsal dinner was lots of fun and had some great BBQ. We got to catch up with some of Brock's OKC friends and tell some stories on Kyle, watch him squirm... haha, poor guy.
Saturday was by far our favorite day! We got up and went downtown to Nashville and drove around a little. We drove by LP Field and Music Mile then made a stop a Centennial Park & Parthenon.
The Parthenon was originally built in the late 1800's in celebration of the centennial and the national exhibition. It was just supposed to be a temporary structure for the centennial celebration but the people of Nashville protested it stay. So they later built it with materials to make it last longer. It the only exact replica of the Parthenon in Athens.
After we finished there, we thought - we're in Tennessee, we have to do some outdoor nature stuff! I love hiking and had read lots of comments for Lake Radnor so we drove over there. We originally choose a "nature" trail that was for hikers only - no jogging or cycling - but it was all mulch and since we had Gracie's stroller (I forgot her backpack carrier), we crossed over to a paved trail. It was so great to be out there!!! I couldn't count how many times Brock and I said that as we walked around.
After leaving Lake Radnor, we just drove around looking at houses. I told Brock I could have done this all day too. The homes are beautiful here. No massive neighborhood developments with ridiculous landscaping. After living in Dallas a few years, I feel like being in Keller is like being in the country. But it's nothing compared to this. There are beautiful old trees here and the houses are actually built on several acres of land. Sure, there are some amazing McMansions here, but most of them are older homes with so much character. I wish I had gotten some pictures of the neighborhoods. Even the normal homes were beautiful! I am so motivated to get home and do some yard work!
Saturday night was the wedding and we had so much fun! The reception was at The Factory at Franklin and they had lots there to entertain us all. Each guest had "money" to play at the casino tables and the top 5 people with the most money won gift cards at the end of the night. We happened to sit at a table with an old GriefWorks friend I haven't seen in a while and we had other friends that took turns taking Gracie around while Brock and I played blackjack (I actually did much better than I thought I would! :)) Gracie really enjoyed the DJ, she was dancing and rockin everywhere! I also think that was some of the best wedding cake I've ever had. :)
All in all, great great trip! :) In other news, Gracie took her first steps a week ago today! After small group (daddy had given her some cake AND a cookie bar), she was putting on a show for everyone. It took her a couple tries but she ended up taking her first steps while our friends Lance & Taylor were filming. (If you're on facebook, Lance uploaded the video and tagged Brock and I.) She's getting to be such a big girl! :)